Forgotten Letter

This letter was written many several years ago and since forgotten. I think it needs to be said agian

To my dear daughters of ZION,

Many Valentine Days ago. I got a gift from Brittany. It was her testimony. I always hoped my other children would follow suite someday, but I got to thinking that it would be a great time for me to express my feelings and testimony on certain matters. So here goes!

For those of you who have already taken your driver’s test, I hope you can appreciate my analogy. Those of you who haven’t I am sure you can relate.

 Life is so much like taking your driver’s test for the first time. At first you do everything in your power to get a perfect score. You put your hands where they belong, you sit up straight, you are aware of the world around you, you’re quiet towards the instructor even if they make a remark that pisses you off and you’re anxious to do your best and pass the test. With all the preparation you make, in learning the rules of the road and practicing behind the wheel, we are extremely anxious to do well and hope to pass with flying colors. EVEN after all that a majority of us fall short. We barely pass our driving test and after some disappointment we forgive ourselves and say yahoo we can drive. 

Then we get sloppy. We slouch behind the wheel, we crank the radio and we ignore the world around us. We only recognize the lousy drivers around us and not notice the mistakes we too are making. Our insides of our cars become a huge mess most of the time. The outside constantly needs washing. When tend to speed too much and maybe even get in a car accident or two. And sometimes we learn from our mistakes and clean out that car, wash it, sit up and turn down the radio so we are aware of the world around us and get our driving SHIT together. And thank heavens for accident forgiveness insurance policies!

Such AS LIFE. We can do everything in our power to pass with flying colors and still fall short. Luckily we have the atonement. WE can’t be perfect without him. No matter how hard we try to be good, do good, and follow his plan we will fall short. Some mistakes are more obvious than others and some we may never recognize them until judgment day. That day when all things are shown unto us and we will embrace the atonement even more so than normal and be perfected in Christ so we can in return live with him and our heavenly father once again. 

However, knowing this is no accuse to get sloppy, we must not go into each day with an attitude of “its OK if I screw up cause I can repent later.” God knows are hearts and he will not be mocked. Sometimes we do make mistakes knowing flat out they are wrong.  Some of us know more than others  for example my children know are bodies are temples  and that they are blessings  from God but yet some of you will choose to tattoo them and have maybe even think about or get extra piercings. You know it’s wrong but you may do it anyway.  We know the Ten Commandments and all of you including myself have broken those. We all know sex outside of marriage is wrong but even I have failed at that one.  Still through proper repentance we can repent in all things. The most important part is wanting the desire to become better, wanting to improve your life, wanting to be a full tithe payer, wanting to keep all actions with your fellow man true and pure. We won’t be perfect in this life, but please don’t use that knowledge as an excuse to have an attitude of I will repent for it later.

Life is a full out amazing roller coaster. It makes you sick excited scared filled with laughter and joy and full of ups and downs. And at some point it will come to a complete jolting stop. That’s when are ride is over and another one will just begin.

I hope that I as a Mother, I can continue to be the best example I can. I know I am not even close to being a perfect mother. I also hope that you will all know that no matter what your mistakes in life I will always love you. ALWAYS!  I won’t sugar coat the truth to make your mistakes easier but I will hug and support you through them to help make them easier. True repentance is never easy but it’s worth it. So carry on my daughters of Zion. You are raising what could be the last generation of Saturday warriors.  Don’t beat yourself up every day for your mistakes be accountable to them and don’t sugar coat them  so much that you tend to justify every wrong action.  Don’t be hypocrites. Don’t go to the temple unworthy and don’t take the sacrament when you shouldn’t.  Talk to your Bishops often and always prayer. Repent all the time for everything you recognize to be not right in your heart. Love your family first especially your spouse. Nothing else will matter one day.

The world will teach you to justify everything!  That we make no mistakes. WE are BORN THAT WAY.. Sort a speak! That attitude is not true and it’s not the world will have us on our knees when HE comes. He will have the world on its knees. He will take it back and what has become “socially acceptable” will not be when he comes.  It is our Savior we have to answer too. Our Heavenly Father and even our families and those we have wronged.  We will redeem ourselves some day and I hope that through the atonement and grace and love your redemption will be an easy one.  The Church is true and we are so blessed to be members of it. Don’t abuse the knowledge you have. Learn from it let it, continue to grow and keep moving forward. I love you all with all my heart.  NO MATTER WHAT MISTAKES YOU MAKE! I hope you don’t shut me out forever. I will always do what I can to help you through it. I am far from perfect, and I will never be perfect but I do believe in the atonement and it has saved my life a number of times. I hope you never have to go through as much repentance as I have, but what very you do go through you’re not alone. You have the Savior and your mom!

PS. It s nothing new to hear me say your all beautiful! I am a little proud at times at how  Beautiful my girls are, I hope you all grow to be just as beautiful on the inside too, if not even more so.

Love you

MOM